friendship blues :(

So, I had an interesting conversation tonight with my husband about me being social, or rather the lack of.  You see, I'm definitely an introvert and my husband is definitely the extrovert. If we were at a party, I would stay attached to my husband and let him do all the talking, maybe jumping into the conversation a time or two. If we were talking to complete strangers, I probably wouldn't ask any questions, but would respond if asked one. I don't like to walk up to random strangers or people that I don't really know and talk to them. My husband, as a friend once said about her husband, "could talk the paint off of a wall and then have it talk back!"

Most of the time, I don't really think about this. I enjoy being alone and having some quiet time. This probably stems from the fact that I come from a family of 9 and grew up without any space and rarely any privacy. I don't have to be around people all of the time, but my husband does. I love going out with our best friends, but we don't have any that actually live in Rockwall. Close, but not enough where we could hang out at the drop of a hat.

Tonight my husband was concerned that I was too unsocial, not happy, and don't have any friends. I tried to explain to him that I AM happy and if that changed I'd let him know! :) Well, the more that I thought about what he said tonight, the more that I realized that I really don't have any girl friends that I hang out with in Rockwall. It's different for Bryan because he has a few guys that he could call up and go hang out with anytime. Me, not so much. I just am not comfortable doing that.

It's hard for me to explain it to my husband, but I feel that I shouldn't really have to work hard at making a friend.  When I think back to when I met all of my best, lifelong, friends, I either just happened to come in contact with them, we had something in common, or we just met and totally clicked. I've never had to try to get any of those friendships. I just want it to automatically happen, and nothing be awkward about it. I just don't want to seem like I'm trying too hard, or a loser you know? I can't stand the thought of me forcing my friendship on someone.

The other thing that I hate is the fact that I have met all of you wonderful people in the blog world, but it's practically impossible for us to be real life friends. Mostly because you live in a different state, or somewhere nowhere near where I live! It just kills me because I know that with some of you, if we lived in the same city, we'd be best friends. I could call you up to go shopping, or go get a mani/pedi or just hang out doing nothing. I miss doing that with my real life best friends.

Bryan and I have been doing good with getting involved with our church and life group and met a ton of great couples! Bryan of course has clicked with several of the guys and I like hanging out with the girls, but it hasn't gone any further than that. I know that I need to be more social and put myself out there, but it's just so hard!

I love my husband to death and love spending time with him, but sometimes I just need a girl friend to hang out with! I'm sorry this is such a depressing post. You can blame it on my husband for making me think about it in the first place! ;) Just please pray that God will bring me a friend. I've prayed about this once before and He brought me Bryan! Maybe this time I'll be a bit more gender specific when I pray! ;)

Well, thanks for listening to me complain! I'll try to write a happier post next time! :)

recipe ideas please!

Well some of you may or may not know that I love to cook! I'm actually a very good cook, but am not good at trying new things. All of my recipes come from my grandmother and mother and that's the way that I like it! I might try something that I found online, but not often. I don't cook uber healthy, but I also don't cook uber bad. I never fry anything and husband grills out a lot of chicken and pork tenderloin. I guess I'd say I'm somewhere in the middle. My husband loves everything that I cook; however, this has caused somewhat of a problem.

In the year that we've been married, we've both put on some of those "married pounds". The biggest concern though is for my husband. We've recently found out that he has very high blood pressure and cholesterol. He's been working very hard the last few months to exercise more, watch what he eats and cut back on portions. I'm trying to help him monitor everything and help out as much as I can, but I need help with my cooking. I really try and think of ways that I can modify my cooking to be healthier but I'm really lacking the recipes. For instance we're really watching his sodium intake, so when we go to the store, we buy things that are salt free, and then I can just salt my stuff.  I just don't know what to cook at home for him that is good. He eats chicken like crazy, so that's good. We try to eat a lot of fresh veggies and fruits, buy baked chips (if he even eats them), we've bought good whole grain wheat bread, he doesn't really ever drink alcohol and we drink sugar free koolaid and water all the time.

This is what I need from you. I know many of you are great cooks out there and more health conscious than I am. If you have any recipes or suggestions for me, I would greatly appreciate it! It can be a whole meal, it can be a snack, it can be elaborate or super easy. I'm just asking for anything you have! :)

You can comment on here if you'd like, or if you have a recipe for me that you'd like to e-mail, just send it to bcmoss627@gmail.com.

Thanks so much guys! I really appreciate it! :)

My Summer Haircut!

I'm a bit behind on this post, but I ended up going to my hairdresser and getting a nice summer trim at the end of June. And when I say trim, I mean she cut off about 5-6 inches! Hehe..

Bryan and I were having a romantic weekend for our 1 year anniversary, so I wanted to be looking good for him! I called my hairdresser and she orignally was booked solid and didn't have any openings. However, when I explained that it was for our 1 year anniversary and I was going out of town soon after that, she agreed to fit me in. Have I said how much I love her? It's funny because she's pretty young, like 21 or 22, but she's awesome! She takes such good care of me, and always asks about Bryan and my family. She's very sweet! Anyways, she gave me a good color and cut, and even showed me some different ways I could style my hair! I always love whatever she does to me, so you can bet I'm not going anywhere soon!

So you can see how much I took off, here are some before and after pictures!

back before

                                                                     front before

front after!

back after!

                                                                       ponytail!

I've got my toes in the water, toes in the sand...

in Destin, Florida baby! Sorry that I've been MIA recently, but I plan on staying that way for a few more days! :) Right now Bryan and I are on vacation with my entire family. We left my parents house Friday night at midnight and arrived in Destin around 3 on Saturday. It was quite a long drive, but definitely worth it! We will be in Destin until Thursday and then we'll be making the drive back.

I'll hopefully do more updating when I get home and have a better internet connection! I have to update about

• our 1 year anniversary
• my new hair cut
• the never ending cough
• Destin

I've been keeping up with you all on Google Reader, but I just haven't had time to comment on anyone! Hopefully I'll be able to fix that soon! I hope you're all doing well and enjoying your summer! I know I am! ;)

Love from Destin.....

Family and Freedom

As the 4th of July approaches, I wanted to share two of my favorite songs as of recently! They're about family and freedom, something that we should always be thankful for, especially now.

Enjoy "This Ain't Nothin" by Craig Morgan and "Free" by the Zach Brown Band!

Honoring Baby Cohen

Sweet Baby Cohen went to be with Jesus last week. His parents Megan and Brent, are having Cohen’s memorial service today. Today all of her blog friends are having a moment of silence to honor Cohen and this family. The moment of silence is an opportunity for Megan’s blog community to stand behind her and support her on this difficult day. To send your love, go here. To read about Cohen's story, go here.

Jesus, we pray that you comfort the brokenhearted.