Wednesday, March 5, 2008

defeated

Since today was such a pretty day, I decided to go out running and continue my Couch to 5K program since I haven't been able to go in a while (Vanessa, I'm almost done with week 4).

I don't know what happened but today's run was...horrible. It was just so hard. I sucessfully completed exactly what the workout said to do, so you'd think I would be happy about that-but I'm not. I honestly have never felt so fat, and ugly, and insecure as I did this afternoon. It just felt like Satan was holding a pillow over my face, suffocating me...I couldn't breathe. I'm so disgusted with myself.

I feel so defeated.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

You are a child of Christ. You are never defeated. The fact that you went out and made the run makes you a winner. There will always be good days and bad days when you are working out. Remember, there are thousands of people who wish they could even go out and run. YOU ARE A WINNER!!

cassandrasaganwebb. said...

I notice that when I have poor workouts it's usually due to one of the following. 1) It's about to be that time of the month and no matter what I do, I still feel fat and defeated. or 2.) I ate like crap that day. What kinds of food did you eat during the day? That could have played a part in feeling winded, sluggish, etc.

Don't give up! You're fabulous!

cassandrasaganwebb. said...

Hmm....maybe your body didn't have enough fuel to burn and that's why it got tired/blah. Who knows...don't give up! :)

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