Well folks, I finally did it..I went private! If you're reading this, that means that you received my invitation and have successfully logged in to read my blog, so congrats! I apologize that you had to log in, and I know it's a hassle. However, after everything with Cassandra, I got scared. As Mama Moss would say, "it scared the stew outta me!"
I decided to go private because of things that have happened to me during the beginning of this school year. I can't go into details, but my teaching methods have been put under the microscope by a parent(s) and administration was called in...all without my knowledge. My reputation as a teacher has been questioned and I know that everything I do is being watched, compared, and contrasted with other teachers. I feel like I'm being stalked..in the classroom.
Thank goodness that my principal defended me, and I KNOW I never did anything wrong, but it still hurts. Anybody who knows me, knows that I love my job and my students more than anything. I always knew I wanted to be a teacher, and I know there's no other job that I will ever do. I can tell you success stories out the wazoo, and post letters parents have written about how great of a teacher I am and how I changed their child's life. However, it's funny how one parent, or one situation can make you forget all your successes.
I know that this is just one hitch in the road, and I WILL not allow what has happened to shape the rest of my school year. I know that this parent can do NOTHING to me...because God knows even the number of hairs on my hand and He has inscribed me in the palm of His hand. My God will let no harm come to me and is my protector and provider! I know that this situation will only make me stronger and make me a better teacher!
It's a bittersweet thing for me to do (going private). Part of me hates the hassle that it means for all of my blog friends...and for any other stranger who wants to read my blog in the future, but won't be able to. However, the other part of me feels free. Free to write whatever I want, and know exactly who's reading it. Free to talk about whatever I want to concerning school, and know that nobody will find out about it. But will I? Probably not..even though I'm now private, I'm still going to cover my butt. Nobody is ever going to threaten to take away my job because of my blog. I can't imagine what Cassandra felt like, but I know I don't want to ever be put in the situation that she was.
Ok, I know this has been a depressing post, but now you know why I went private! Thank you fellow readers for being so faithful! You are the reason I write..and will continue to do so! :0)